See the invisible

To live content with small means to seek elegance rather than luxury, and refinement rather than fashion; to be worthy, not respectable, and wealthy, not rich. To listen to stars and birds, voices and sages with an open heart; to study hard; to think quietly, act frankly, talk gently, await occasions, hurry never in a word. To let the spiritual unbidden and unconscious, grow up through the common.

Somtimes there is nothing that can take the place of internal emptiness. You can try and find the reason why you just don't have enough enegy to argue, but all the time in the world to cry. Why candle light seems so much more soothing than the light of day. Why it feels so good to just bask in you own anger and sadness, why the sun doesn't feel right on the darkness of your thoughts. Sometimes there are things we can't explain, things we do that there are no reasons as to why we mindlessly do them. Those things feel so right at the moment but so wrong in another. Our minds work in a way that we can't comprehend, which is why I need to explain my self. Writing is my only outlet. Just a blank canvas on which no one can judge you for. Painting pictures with words is what my life is about. So let me paint this picture for you darling because you deserve every word.

I once stopped to think about the tingling in my stomach whenever I thought about you. The way my heart wants to burst every time we kiss. The way I think about the day that we'll only need each other, no one else. I rememeber someone one told me that lies will lock you up, the truth the only key. Well I was locked up, and I gave you the key. Transparency is the most beautiful thing about us now, and I want you to accept that things happen sometimes. I want you to know that no matter what happens you will always be, to me, a light that no one else can discover. A map to things I can't discover by myself. Words are just words but I have fallen in love with the art of literature. The way a group of words can make a world of difference in someones eyes, it can create emotion. But even more incredible is the art to express thoughts through these fine words and here it goes. I'm writing down everything I feel.

Look a little deeper so you can see the invisible. Take a little time to remember the moments that we could just cry because we were so happy yet so afraid that it would end to soon. Take a moment to remember all of the words that were said and the feelings that were stimulated. I've never felt that way before. I will not let you down again. I will never let you down. I step outside my mind's eye's for a minute. And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease, or something that could ease the pain. But nothing cures the hurt you bring on by yourself. Even though it's hard to see that the glass is not half empty but half full, I want you to close your eyes and invision my presence.

Emptiness that we share is no longer absent, it is very present. I know what's wrong, and I know now why your pain hurts me so much. I know why this feeling is so dormant over me, and it's because i'm in love with you.